Zombie wrote:I'm too hard on everyone around me, I fear that if I'm not they will just settle for whatever mediocre crap happens to fall at their feet.
Thats my biggest weakness. Im too content. I can be content in almost any situation, its scary. No one believed I was going to move out here. it took one of my best friends who is also a big brother with your philosophy typed right there, for me to realize it and change my fate. Drove across the country for a job with my degree - now i have my job and Im happier because of it. I need more people like you and him around me. You are a must have Zombie. you could have influenced and changed somoene's life with that very real outlook, and not even know it. Look at it as Youre the guy handing out the glasses in John Carpenter's "They Live". That outlook you have can make people want to kick ass and chew bubblegum, when they just ran all out of bubblegum!!!
...That I have a hard time expressing myself. All is right in my mind and imagination. I constantly think to myself and even think to myself out loud when im alone or think im alone. When it comes to transmitting my thoughts to another once they get to the next tier of deep vs casual, its like they are not me, so i dont know how to make sense of myself to another being im not familiar with. i tend to keep it too formal and....weird/awkward.