S I L E N C E

[ImmaculateStiletto]

I sit in the silence
Deafening to my mind.
Bringing forth all the insecurities;
making me second guess everything.
Questioning each move I've made.
This silence is a killer.
A destruction of my mind and soul.
I fight to keep control;
in a battle I will never win.
I try to run,
to free my mind of this evil.
It laughs at me, it mocks me.
Holding on tight, and torturing.
There is no peace for me in this hell.
With no more energy,
I succumb to the silence.
Allowing it to take me to those places,
the places that I never want to go to.
The raw places that I hide from
in my everyday life.
Where hurt, pain, sorrow, dwell
waiting to rip me to shreds,
I must dive head first
into the deep end of this silence.
Allowing myself to take it all in,
to deal with it.
Find my own understanding,
my place of freedom.
My truth.

[Philly]

Love this. I can so relate

[Tahj Jones]

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[ImmaculateStiletto]

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[PhlawlessPhelon]

I love your posts~! Just saying.

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[Zansi'Vara]

I have felt this before. I have dived head-first into the darkness of my soul, and there I met a being who I have come to know as Insanity. He is a representation of that darkness. That silence. He is how I see it, and how I speak with it. How I use it to inspire my words. He has carried me through many horrible times, as I have found that the darkness in me is much more resilient than the light. For a while, he would walk with me, and, for a while, I would let him direct me. I didn't always make the best decisions, but I learned from them, and I became stronger because of them. More than anything, he lets me face my darkness head-on and confront it like a real being. I like this piece, and I am beginning to think I like your writing style in general. xD

[ImmaculateStiletto]

I have felt this before. I have dived head-first into the darkness of my soul, and there I met a being who I have come to know as Insanity. He is a representation of that darkness. That silence. He is how I see it, and how I speak with it. How I use it to inspire my words. He has carried me through many horrible times, as I have found that the darkness in me is much more resilient than the light. For a while, he would walk with me, and, for a while, I would let him direct me. I didn't always make the best decisions, but I learned from them, and I became stronger because of them. More than anything, he lets me face my darkness head-on and confront it like a real being. I like this piece, and I am beginning to think I like your writing style in general. xD

I think the scariest part for people is understanding that you do have to embrace the darkness in order to understand and come out of it. Whatever that darkness is. We tend to want everything to be light and bubbly and wonderful. In reality the world itself is not like that. We all have a darkness that we need to understand.

[ImmaculateStiletto]

I love your posts~! Just saying.

THANKS!!!!

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i love this thread.. the reflection of that stain, can bring one to a place of humility and then growth. made me sit up straight

[AliceElite]

I think that silence is a really important aspect of our world - there is no sound without silence, no darkness without light, and the absence of anything gives us space for self reflection - as painful and difficult as that might be. That's what this made me think of.

[rc44]

very relatable and very open. I enjoyed the lines
This silence is a killer.
A destruction of my mind and soul.
I fight to keep control;

thanks for sharing

[ravenrussell]

Silence, is a subtle conroller of moments. It creates noise, in its ackward way. I like your poems Stiletto, if I can just silence the ego beast within me, I can fully appreciate your gift for what it is. And not for how it may outshine me at times. Thank you for helping me to learn humility and patience. Also teaching me the miraculous beauty of simplicity.